It also

It also has been a year and two months with my boyfriend Tom. Im so lucky to have him!

Social

Again havnt posted in awhile. Im not even sure if anyone reads this anymore because a lot of people used to. Well if anyone and i litterly mean everyone, needs someone to talk to, i am here. I listen and try to give you the best advice i can. My twitter, instagram, kik, and ask.fm i go by @mandypie97 im always here for everyone even if im only 16!

Wow

I havnt been on here in forever. SO MUCH has happened. My step dad passed away June 16th on fathers day. It was and still is just horrible. My mom cant work from fibro. And so much stuff was going wrong in our house that we needed to fix. Everything is fixed though! Haha. Im 16 now! A sophomore in high school. And i recently found out im bipolar and i have boarderline personality disore. So if anyone is reading this and has those, talk to me! Im here if anyone needs me. My kik is mandypie97 my twitter is mandypie97 :) i hope you're having a fantastic day!

Updated

WISH LIST

I wish i didn't have fibromyalgia

I wish i didn't hurt

I wish i wasn't always depressed

I wish i could be a normal teenager

I wish i was rich

I wish it didn't hurt to do things i love

I wish Fibro didn't exist

I wish there was no bad in the world

I wish school wasnt so stressful and hard

I wish i could sing

I wish i could dance

I wish i was pretty

I wish i was happy with my physical apperance

I wish there was no money problems

I wish i had more clothes

I wish i had an iPhone

I wish i didnt have acne

I wish i didnt get sad

I wish i didnt have bad memories

I wish i wasnt tired all the time

I wish i was smart

I wish i was funny

I wish i was creative

i wish i wasnt wishing so many things

MY THANKFUL LIST

I am thankful for my family

I am thankful for my friends

I am thankful for my boyfriend

I am thankful for my one floor house

I am thankful for air

I am thankful for shoes

I am thankful for clothes

I am thankful for my dog

I am thankful for food

I am thankful for being able to see

I am thankful for being able to hear

I am thankful for being able to walk

I am thankful for god

I am thankful for living

I am thankful for tv

I am thankful for internet

I am thankful for books

I am thankful for blankets

I am thankful for a bed

I am thankful for makeup

I am thankful for nail polish

I am thankful for jewlery

I am thankful for animals

I am thankful for flowers

I am thankful for many many more things. 

-I just hope that people realize even if they had a hard life, they still have things to be thankful for. Even if its just the air your breeth. Please take some time to make a list of things you wish for and things you are thankful for and see which one is bigger, Think deeply into the lists too. Thank you for reading if you did. I hope you have a pain free night.

Twitter: @mandypie97

Wow.

Wow. I havn't posted in FOREVER. I doubt anyone even looks at my blog anymore. Anyway, my life has been hell lately. Depression is really bad. My grandpa died in december, a few days before Christmas. Step dad is in the hospital, in a lot of pain lately, and yeah. It's finally summer and my freshman year is overrr! THank god. Now its summer and i hope i can have fun without pain getting in the way. Oh and i have a boyfriend. It will be 6 months with him on tuesday :) He's amazing and helps me through all of this crap. My best friend moved to another school and i hardly see her, a lot of people don't like me anymore. Well, they never really did anyway. But still. I just don't know how i have lasted this long. 

My depression has gotten soooo bad. I don't even want to give details. I feel like there is a monster inside of me. Trapped, and it can never escape. I feel like its eating away my happiness and putting bad memories in my mind to hurt me. 

Well, im gonna try and keep up with this if anyone still even reads it. 


Stay strong.

Pain

Sorry i havn't been posting. I am currently in a lot of pain and have been all freaking weekend :( I hate it.

On the bright side, CHRISTMAS IS SOOOOON! This is my FAVORITE time of year and i can't wait until we decorate, bake cookies, and see our families! Its the best time ever! And I just love how happy everyone is during this season! YAY!

I hope everyone is doing well! HAPPY VETERANS DAY

U pdates

Well, i have not heard anything from mcdonalds so i guess i didnt get the job. I really with is did :( Aw well, i should have known. Nothiing ever goes my way.

Well, right now i am sitting in bed with my tv on but it's on mute, and my dog is laying beside me with her head on my leg. Aww :)

I just want everyone reading this to know that there has been another suicide due to bullying. He name is Amanda Todd. MANY people have probably already heard of her. But i just hate hearing this stuff happening. I wish bullying would end and i am trying to take a stand against it! Please join me!

Pain wise, terrible. Enough said.

Well in pain and such so goooodbye! Have a wonderful night